I'm dead

I've been isolated from the world for a few days. I got some kind of mental breakdown due to stress and other stuff. I'm not okay. I've never been so broken as now. I have to start school and everyday routines. But i don't know if i can do it. I don't want to do anything than go back in time. I miss Tampere and all the people there. I just want to go back. 
So.. I've only been painting weird stuff. 

Minun käteni My hands

 Nunna puutarhassa The Nun in the Garden

"I want to change the world, and do something valuable and beautiful.
I want people to remember me before I'm dead, and then more afterwards."